The thorn in your side is what makes you who you are. From oysters that get a grain of sand in them, pearls come out. In short, all the trials you are going through are a pruning, so that you can bear more fruit. Think of all that you have learned from old age, illness, etc. You may not see it now, but you are more than capable of doing a lot of good in the world. Your time will come, life is not a movie where everything happens in a couple of hours, it can be years, but it will come. A big hug, Norlissa.